20081026

i dont know how to hold on anymore.
i dont know what i want
im sorry if anything will happen.
holding on is so hard,
or maybe is it i dont understand.
forget it,
i've been forgiving you,
again and again,
i just forgiven you again.
if this continues,
i dont know who am i going to be.
will i ever to be back myself?
at the same time,
im very afraid,
just so afraid that you will let go,
maybe if you let go,
everything will be better,
but everything will also change,
you will no longer see the reena you now have seen.
i find it so hard to love you,
so hard, so hard.
its been so long so long,
since someone has ever touched my heart.
i've decided to hold on to you,
i try my best never to let you go,
becos i love you.

or maybe i will never.