I always have this fear that one day you're gna discover that I'm not as great as you once thought.
sucks. so lazy to blog. but too many photos. monday went to town with yuxin. went to far east, paragon and 313. ljs for dinner, coldrock afterwards. awesome. :) tuesday went to cityhall with melissa and yuxin. melissa had souperlicious for lucnh. then went to suntec walk walk, then off to esplanade outside take pic. but too dark, cmi. cui. had pepper lunch for dinner, went to minds cafe. ladies night :) played board games for free with drinks. yesterday went to ecp for zone bbq. had an awesome time with cg. :) shall not say what happen. cos totally sucks. later on having cg at jasmine's house. so lazy to go. super far got anot. -_-
let's pretend it doesn't hurt anymore, easy? no. let's move on, i can't. i'm slowly losing myself. you ruined my life. i can't remember what is it like to be happy anymore. i can't find my old self anymore. people asked where did it went. i don't know what to reply. i don't even know who i used to be anymore. sigh. how do you want me to live, when i'm hardly even breathing? it's tiring crying this tears. seems like it's never ending. i don't wna miss you anymore. it's making me feel so miserable. but how? sigh.. each time you ignore my message, my heart crack a little. i wonder if you're happy now. to see you change so much, i know you're. you're not like this in the past. not this happy, not this loud, not this noisy. but now, you've become everything i thought you wouldn't. i miss the old you. the one that cared for me when no one else does. the one that tells me everything's gna be okay. but i guess, you're telling that to another girl now. and it tears me apart.
