We don't talk anymore. I'm trying not to feel miserable about it.
don't know why am i blogging. cos of pictures i think. lol! im just gna do a short post. well, service yesterday. awesome, totally. <: so, slept at 5am, woke up at 8am. gosh... prepared + bathe + change + breakfast + tv, and off to melissa's, wait for her to bathe & change. off to pioneer mrt to meet zhiwei. then to boonlay int to meet zheng yang and eugene. went to tm to continue yz's card. waited for seahhui do pictures deco card, wrote on it. and zt came. then sooon, kahmeng and geraldine came. do do do and ate, and the time was like 5.05pm. i was like omg!!!!!!!!!! then i was like, seahhui!!!!!!!! its 5pm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! then she was like oh no oh no!!!!!!! we packed up and rushed to expo for service. :) super distracted. X: first time, zhiwei and zt was sitting beside me. -.- was trying to concentrate while zw nudged me and show me 2 fingers. and that equals to, play chopstick with him. i laughed okay. then zt was like, play with him never play with me. then i say ok, play lor. then he thought me this finger game that made me laughed like crazy during service and im addicted to it now. hahahaha, after service celebrated yueze's birthday. felt satisfaction. screamed and shouted with the banners and many are looking. felt like as if i achieved something really great. felt sooo happy. :) but anyway, happy birthday yueze! he's my awesome cell group leader! he thought me many many things that i wouldnt have learnt if i didnt know him. he is always! there when i needs somebody, when i felt down and he knows it without me telling. always making us laugh.. and he brighthens up e464! it'd have been different if i didnt know him in life. he changed me. :)
felt really bored today, asked melissa where she going, and me end up find her for breakfast at 1pm. :) ate and waited for zt, okay, my post stopped here. all of a sudden dc and this is all it saved-.- forget it, i shall type again! xinpei came, waited for them eat, and eugene came. mrt-ed to vivo. otw there was sooo funny ok. especially on the way to purple line. we all walk walk and studdenly stopped walking all we looked up. trying to catch attention and get everyone to look up with us! lol!!!!!!! laughed like crazy woman. we suceeded ok! got 1 person look up! lol!!! went to vivo and walk walk, zt was making me laugh all the way. wakakakkaka, and we saw the vivo drummer team. zt was like, want to pua stunt anot. i said ok. lol!!!! zt was like come we follow them behind, like they making way for us cos we vip! then zt keep waving hand. lol!!!!!!! i laughed like omg. x.x arcade with them, took 30 home. otw home was soooo funnny on the bus like the bus was ours! wahahahahahah! cos of the magic tricks! hahahahah! alighted at 399 changed 240 and homed with xinpei. i love them ttm, like even though this morning i wasnt feeling well and wont even be prolly laughing, and my stomach keeps hurting like i dont know why. i felt like i want to die, thanks for making me day! wahahahahs, i want midnight movie with mvy, miss them sooo much. :( guess if internet didnt die on me, i'd prolly have typed more. wah... my effort.. hahaas, but its ok. wahs, im very distracted now. T________T feel like an idiot.. really.
im gna be totally moodless this few days.. i can't take this.. like.. why must it always happen.. forget it.. maybe it should be over, like looong loong time ago.. i regretted.. its distracting me. you're distracting me. from school, to friends, to god and slowly, to everything. i need to stop this. feeling the distance. but no, you're not gna distract me from god. this feeling suck, and i promise it makes me die. my heart melted when i saw that. i want to cry. i miss you, so much.
ohhh, and twilight. it says.. what do you do.. when the one thing you live for leaves you..? this question came into my mind immediately. to think that, im gna die, im gna kill myself, not live anymore since theres nothing for me to live for. to cry and cry and cry and not stop. to not sleeping, not eating.. but no, i thought of this.. im living for god, and he will never ever leave me.
