It's sad to know that we used to love talking to each other, and now you won't even say a word to me.
hi you all. so nice to be back blogging, school started already. don't have the time to blog so much anymore. and it sucks okay. blog from saturday. woke up in the morning, prepared and off to meet with zhiwei and kahmeng to imm. waited for junwei to end work. so decided to go mac eat first. didn't eat, fooling around. they seriously make me so mad so mad, but i know i'll bear. after junwei ended work, went to toilet wait for him to change then off to je mrt, melissa came and save the day. im hot like shiat. but i still have to bear. waited for yuxin to come then trained to expo. first service of the year at hall 1, oh how much i miss hall 8. suddenly feel really weird, but gna be there for like 4 months, have to get use to it anyway. pst tan shared a great word today. have to forget abt things that happened in 2009, get ready for new things. something great has happened, something even greater will happen. grace upon grace! luv that sat's word although my tummy's not being a good girl. took my medicines and it felt better. okies, im suppose to finish the medicines within 2 weeks, means by now im suppose to finished already. but i keep skipping it, im still left with 2 packets. coolio or what. :) after service went to bedok mac for fellowship. just the 7 of us, fun like duno what. i miss yz, seahhui, geraldine, justin, alvin and mayling though. miss thier voices around the cg during fellowship. but we still had fun. zhiwei was crapping around with the l4d hokkien thingy, laughed like crazy. shifted the tables to stick them together like the mac was ours. laughed and laughed and laughed till everyone couldnt finish their food. wanted to go lan to watch the video, but the lan guy tell us to wait for 10 minutes, so decided not to go already. went to the void deck near geraldine's place to slack. continue to laugh there, seriously mad crazy. decided to play murderer, so paper and pen out! i took continiously 3 times murderer, made me laughed. hahah! slack till 11pm and went off. alighted at tanjong pagar with kahmeng. hehes, chat with him and he knows my secret. who i like. and things. hahas! trained to lakeside and kahmeng went back home. sunday, went to tuition. sibeh sian, bored till the end. craps there, smsing and smsing all the way, trying to irritate the teacher. but they don't seem to care. aiya, they take money only ma. haha! wanted to sleep early that sunday night.. but i couldnt. only manage to fell asleep at 2+am.. woke up at 530am for school. got ready... raining cats and dogs. cold till the max, air con still on. felt like shiat. then went down with my new uniform. super weird. raining, so vivian's daddy came to fetch us to school. thanks uncle! went into the back gate, dolly lee sitting there catching everyone. we saw her jitao turn back wanted to walk away, then she was like. 4 of you! stop there! pin up ur fringe, unfold your skirts and keep ur handphones! we jitao sian also.. get in the school not even 5 minutes ok. zzz. so do untill she happy and walk away. assembly at the hall, naggy like shit. then disicipline talk. melissa & vivian kena suspended. but melissa came back soon after. class was shiat. feel really weird in this class. new teacher, new classmates, new class. form teacher miss seeto (mee soto) was talking and talking, i miss ms ng soo much. i want her back as my form teacher though she really nag alot alot! wah seriously feel weird not having ms ng around.. this class is so quiet. wheres all the noisy boys? :( kahmeng, jefferson, ravinpal, jinxiong.. all different class already. 3c super quiet. super weird, although i have m, v, y, binhuang, pamela, vivianS, harriel, leon, jinhan. but still crappy weird. after school took v long to decide where to go. went to mac with y, z and v. ate and v left. so started throwing tissues paper all around. fun to the max. talk about harry potter's professor's chinese name. laugh like crazy idiot in mac with y and z. play with the tissue papers and laugh all the way cos of the peh hor (eyebrow) thing. machiam mac ours again. hehe. no where to go, they came over to my place. watch the videos on youtube and ate what mummy cooked. laughed with them all the way. and throw all my stitch around, that person kena my whack till sibeh jialat. hehe =p im kidding, hope that person's okay. hahah! okies la, shall stop here le. i've got many things to rant though, haha. if you don't wna waste your time, don't read. hehe. school's in, really sian.
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im very tired already.. im losing grip. how long can i take this? you're taking over my brains, i tell myself not to let you have that power. but i can't. every night, you come into my mind when im on my bed and i couldnt sleep. i think about everything we've gone through together, tears starts to fill my eyes, i really miss you. especially your voice. boy remember that i'll always be here when you feel alone, i'll always care, even though i know you don't anymore. just text me, i'll always reply you. somehow, my heart just don't wish to let you go, by looking at you in a way you won't know it, makes me feels happy. i smile whenever i see you, i want to hug you so badly. whenever i know i can look at you again, it scares me. cos i thought we'd never meet again. my mind has you in it, my heart has everything we've been through together in it. although i know you won't come back, all those things won't come back. i'll still cling on. i really hope i can let go too. really. im sorry for being so stubborn and irritating to be messaging you everyday. i know you don't like it. i'll stop. when the day comes that i don't think of you anymore, i'll be gone.
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friends, especially to melissa, vivian, yuxin, kimberley, seahhui, ain, kahmeng, zhiwei, eugene, geraldine, binhuang, cherlyn and candice, amanda, msdaphne. im always gna be here, i promise you. throughout all your troubled times, i'll never leave. keep smiling, keep shining, knowing you can always count on me, for sure. thats what friends are for. and so by the way, i thank you. :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIEYI! :)
GRACE UPON GRACE.
