Sorry for not being enough and probably i never will.
blessed 2010 everyone! :) hope that everyone's happy right now, cos i don't think iam. mood totally spoiltttt, by you. yes you selfish. ahhh, yea you're right, sorry for not being understanding, sorry for not knowing that im only fourteen, sorry that i wasnt enough to be exactly what you need, sorry for not being there when you're alone. sorry. whatever shit you're always right and all iam is just wrong. as long as you want to be right, you have to be and must be and i never got the chance to explain. i never will, you win. always. well, im just a loser. a someone that will never be enough for you. irritates you all the time, irritating me. don't wish to waste my happy post on you.
ooooops sorry readers, im feeling really angry, sad, pekcek, emo, irritated, annoyed.. with and by myself. okies, get back to the point. welcome 2010, its gna be good, better, best year of all by faith i believe. yea it will. 2009 has been really great i promise. not yet ready to face school, but i have to. yea, few more days. hate the feeling. aw. nvmmm, okies. woke up feeling damn super tired, so dragged and snoozed the alarm clock for 1 hr and a half. yea, woke up at 930am, prepared and off to lakeside meet bowen and zhiwei. waited for kahmeng and melissa to reached. trained to payalebar, was having so much fun on the train joking around with them. its always filled with laughter having them around. reached payalebar, met eugene. then went to find the busstop to roland seafood restaurant. walked to the wrong one, so walked to another. damn tired. finally got up a bus, but alighted the wrong stop. but smart and fast enough to know its wrong, got back up the same bus and alighted at another stop. funniest part happened here. we couldnt find the restaurant. walk rounds and rounds and eugene got up the wrong lift, then continue to walk around. so called yz and he told me to ask pple. and melissa was following some pple alrdy. so reached that place. everyone was waiting for the lift, so eugene rushed up the stairs. followed them, run up the stairs, 6 floors. coolio, so loooong since i did this. okies, cool. mj zone appreciation lunch started here! :> fun to the max okies. although the award really scare me so big. hahas! anyway, thanks e464! and yueze of cos! :) really felt bless and happy that im able to spend the last day of the year with mj zone. they're 1 of the most loving friends i have in life. awesome! chat and laugh while waiting for yueze. then trained home. eugene followed us to countdown he's really awesome okies. so went home, changed and went down. met kahmeng, eugene, zhiwei, junwei, nicholas. then melissa and yuxin came. went to eat as i was feeling really hungry after not really eating anything at mj zone's lunch. hahaha! ask me why. lol! after eating, went to blcc took someone's basketball and play. really fun with laughters all over although im always getting bullied cos they keep dowant gimme ball. okies its been reallly looong since i touched a basketball. hehez, had fun though. soooon, vivian, eunice, alyssa, ricco, jinhan came over. slack at this void deck, playing with the snow spray. stupid zhiwei made my hair damn wet and soapy and sticky and disgusting. hahaha! but i had lots of fun running around with them. time past really fast, soon it was 1155pm already, went to the stage there to countdown. super damn crowdedddddd, and many many many pple there welcoming 2010 together. the fireworks were really beautiful okays. amazing to the max! awesomeeeeee fireworks! ;) played with snow spray again, got even wetter this time. crazy fellow. hehez, but had fun la, really. sit at this duno where to joke and chat. zhiwei and kahmeng was the joker of the night! :) hahaha, super duper funny, laugh die me. then after this mood spoilt. okies, dun wna continue already. should be gng to shopping with geraldine tml or else movie w mrvy. lets see how. 2009 went off really fast. haha, i guess i must learn how to let go too. can one.
school's starting. dreads. sigh, well over means over. no more looking back. how many times must i remind myself? irritating reena. argh.
2010 WILL BE THE BEST YEARRRRRRRRRR
