I can't remember what it's like to not be tired anymore.
decided to blog, even though im suppose to go pack my bag for tml's school and sleep. but i guess i really want to blog. kaes, here comes my long and emo post. lets start from saturday. woke up and prepared for cellgroup. trained all the way to tampines alone. okay.. although it sucks to take train alone. cos i'd be thinking alot.. my stomach's not feeling good right now. got the feeling of vomitting. wondering how did this stomach of mine works with so little food everyday. but anyway, cellgroup led by miranda was awesome. love saturday's message. about expecting the best in life. gonna start each day with faith! :) fellowship was cooked food by lingli. great alright! went to tanahmerah meet kahmeng.. talk talk. trying to get melissa but i can't. so forget it. went to service. sat at echo at the hand sign there. super weird and cool. learn quite a few hand signs. haha! thank god for the plot of land! totally great atmosphere of joy. :) fun! fellowship at bedok.. laughs. then homed. chat w kahmeng otw home agn. guess many things changed already.. shall not say why. ask me if you wna know. sunday, went out to meet kahmeng and eugene at superbowl mac. then yuxin came. binhuang came for awhile, then went off. geraldine came. zhiwei and melissa and junwei came. they went out to arcade, so left me, kahmeng, yuxin, geraldine and eugene studying at mac. good girls and boys here alright ;) but we laughed too hard that we chased the two guys studying behind us out. they were like so irritated luh. thanks to eugene that made us laugh! hahaha. went to arcade play. zhiwei and melissa and junwei went off. left w me, jed, yuxin, km and eug. slack awhile there, chat and they went home. stomach was terrible that time. but whatever. slept late, woke up early. sad case. cos of school.
today school was normal. i reached schl the latest tday :) talking to pam abt some stuffs. overall school was bored tday and i wasn't concentrating well tday due to some reasons. was super disappointed luh. and like.. i really don't like it now. :( do you even treat me like how you did in the past? nah you don't anymore.. you've changed sooo much. back to who you used to be last time. sigh. so strange. so weird. so near in my heart yet so far. im starting to feel alone alrdy. when will you realise you're wrong....? after school yuxin pei wo go find ms tang cos i forgot to do the stupid hmework. but end up can't find her so went off first. leon came to find me but he got chingay rehearsal. went to jp look for melissa, zhiwei and junwei. was super hungry with only bread in the morning. ate mac. then went home change, then off to superbowl. did hmework at tm cafe then to arcade. slack arnd there. kahmeng, leon was there. :) went off to zw hse dwnstair while he went to fetch his sis. playing w leon and km. leon got angry w melissa. so he walked off w km. went to 399 w mel, zw and jw. brought his sis to ballet class then walked arnd. slack and went home at 9. so tired la! gna have to sleep late tonight again.. gna wake up like 530am tml. argh. so depressing. and you're treating me so cold alrdy. so super don't like it, so heart broken. and my stomach's trying to kill me. what the ass do you want when you're so full and i can't eat anything but you're making me wna puke now. whatever butever gahever. rubbish, im crazy alrdy. partly because of you. and because of you. yes you and you. what now. im all screwed up. thanks for being there to listen to all my troubles. and i guess the only ones that knows the reason im screwed up is yuxin and kahmeng. whatever luh, prays for the best. im giving all my worries to Him. reena, don't be afraid, stay strong. keep the fire burning.
