A long time ago I decided to stop having expectations to people, but after you came around I just couldn’t help myself. You broke my heart.
just wanted to blog cos i felt like it! :) took pictures w my webcam again and just felt like spamming it. though i didn't posted anything out. haha. nua-ed at home the whole day today. didn't went out except just now went downstair to get my mc delivery frm km. haha! no luh, joking only. well tmr school starting again. i v sian already. common tests starting tmr also. haven even studied. i feel like a loser out of a sudden. well shall not say any unhappy stuffs though. lets all jiayou bah, mye coming le. well, pray hard that my stomach gets better. or else i really don't know what to do anymore. it doesn't seem to know how to get hungry anymore. all day long all i feel like is puking. whatever. lets just hope things will be fine :)
yesterday was speech day, cellgroup and service. awesome one, went to mac early in the morning with vivian. supposingly was going with vivian, mandi, yuxin and melissa. end up only me and vivian go. cos all late and dun wan go. whateverz, ate and went to school. we're late. reached school at 8.15am. watch the parade march here march there under the hot sun, then homed after that. prepared, bathe and went to bus stop meet junwei and off for cellgroup. awesome cgmeeting by shalynne. learnt quite alot of things though. stomach ain't well as expected. went to eighteen chef's for fellowship and meilin's birthday celebration. didn't serve yesterday. haha! ate, took pictures. mandi and kahmeng came. bus-ed to expo. we were late for service. sat at echo with jusin, kahmeng, junwei, mandi. seperated with e464 and e369 cos not enough sits. sad enough. after service wanted to go orchad but end up didn't. went to bedok for fellowship. mac, the lights were off due to earth hour. hahaha hilarious. ate and homed after that. well still i love e464 and e369 most. have no idea why but i feel so comfy with them around. (:
''I'm trying to sleep, but the voices in my head are too loud, and i'm remembering all these things i've done. So I turn to my side and face the wall, and breathe slowly. Close my eyes, then open them, close them once more. I see his face now, you know the boy I told you about. Now, I know I won't be able to sleep. I suppose this is why most people are insomniacs. The voices won't go away, the memories keep coming back, and people haunt them in the darkness of the night. I turn the lights on, sit on the edge of my bed and cry. Just a little bit, to make it easier to breathe. I turn the lights off and try to sleep again. Its going to be another long night.''
Why should I give up on God? He never thought of ever giving up on me before:)
