I wish you not being here didn’t break my heart.
screwed up memory card still not working! :( using my old memory cad. argh, but whatever. school's getting really bored alright. tuesday after schl went to polyclinic for doctor. finally they referred me to the hospital! but it's gna take super looong. kk, wednesday after schl went home, changed and went out with melissa mango dang. wanted to pay money for our tees, but jeslyn couldn't make it. camped in the toilet with melissa to take pictures, chat chat and went home after that.
yesterday, sel played treasure hunt. sot plug one. after school went home, seahhui came and tuition me. she's forever falling asleep. went to look for yuxin arnd 6+ and spent lots of money on food, shopping and popular. broke ttm okay. took 246 and went home at arnd 9pm and cousin and uncle came to eat.
today school was super bored okayz. thank god its friday. first lesson was chinese. retesttt, sucka. geog and chem was super boredzxzzz. during chem my stomach ain't well already. sucks! recess cannot eat anything again! so screwed up with this stomach. and the last lesson was english. thanks to the teachers for their concern! :) but im not pregnent!
you've changed. and i guess that's what hurts. it's tearing me apart. everything changed and i miss the past. i miss who i thought you were. the one that'd care. but now i realise that it doesn't matter to you anymore. it breaks my heart to see you like this. the way you reply my messages, it changed too. the way you use your smiley face. sometimes i wonder why. im so afraid that one day i'd see things i don't wish to. i'm so afraid when that happens, i don't know what to do anymore. i really miss the feeling you gave to me. the way you cared for me. its getting colder, we're getting colder. i feel like we're completely strangers. and i miss the old you.
oh yes i'll be fine. you'd like to see me fall? try harder in pulling me down with your words.
and don't you realise that you shooting vulgarities at me don't help much? :)
